This poem really expressed an unexplainable thing. ur so right, its odd how we can be addicted to stupid shit like that.

Wow, i loved it!! I am exactly the same way!

Sometimes the thing which happens when our mind has been in the state of depression for long is that we are not able to adjust to the new environment of happiness. Happiness is an emotion which is felt and on the other hand the same thing applies for sadness, which is to be felt too. So, the positive way to look forward could be by accepting both of these feelings as emotions which are natural. Natural feelings never do harm because we have realized their existence. I liked this poem of yours because I can relate to it. It also raises a feeling which is very common in one's mind especially in today's world.