Daddy...todays my 14th birthday

Its my 14th birthday
I slept in late
and had everything my way
everything was great

except one thing
you weren't here
because an angel took you by her wings
and I am here, still full of fear

I waited by the phone all day
waiting for that phone call
the call to wish me a happy birthday
and I waited till nightfall

around 12 o' clock
I realized you weren't calling
I had to go on a walk
because I coucouldn'tt stop bawling

I cried the whole walk
because I was disappointed once again
all I wanted was to talk
to have a chat with you

my 14th birthday
and I don't hear from you,
I know I have to understand
that you went buh-bye

I guess I'm just sad
that you can't be here
maybe more than sad, maybe mad
and I can't stop these tears

it's my 14th birthday
and I don't get why...
Why you could stop your life that day
but I can't stop these tears, even if I try

I just miss you
and I hope you can hear what I'm saying
just give me a clue
and its weird...cos as I'm writing this, your laying...and every second your decaying

so...I guess you wont call
and I wont see your happy face again
but I'll try not to bawl
because...our memories still remain

I'll wish myself a happy birthday
another year older
another day ahead that is gay
and another day that I just want to cry on your shoulder

daddy...i love and miss you.
love your jenna bean.
_Jennayrighted JENNA 2006