Another night alone
just wasting away
hoping, wishing with everything I have
that he might come
pull me out of this place
trapped like a pearl in an oyster
if I lay, sit ,or stand
its all the same as the night before
my thoughts are drowning me
drowning me trapping me further
with no one to talk to
feeling completely ignored
forgotten by those around me
they all sleep while I torment me
tossing and turning without sleep
reminiscing over nights of nothing
thinking of the so called
loves past
person after person
they never understood
the way my mind wonders
its like I'll be here forever
why cant anybody speak
or listen to what I scream
whisper in my ear
and say a sweet anything
am I alone
does nobody see what I want
past the mask
the one I've been taught to hold
is there a trust-able soul
to whom I can speak
do you understand what I'm saying
why does every thought of you have to be only a dream
don't you feel it when were together
the magic that holds us together
these emotions running ramped
unable to escape
it builds to the point of explosion
the only release is you
when I see your eyes
my circuits just blow
and when you sit with your guitar
theres just nothing I can do
its like I'm crying
but my face is dry
your touch is a spark
I wonder if i create
holding you close
its like a song that you are pulled into
one that you never want to end
do you know the burning of you gone
though we will have out lives to let it show it just doesn't feel enough
wont you just call and say my name
remind me why
why I put myself through this pain
you voice sooths me away
it my own little lullaby
sung only to our tune
please this distance
it kills me
but as you are where you are
and I am not
I just want you to know
that I love you
and that will never change
I told my my heart is to one
one forever true
that no one can reach it
just you
so as write for all to see
though only truly meant for you and me
I wait among the pain of this heartache
for the dream I wake to
the only one that is true
(turned out I'm the only true one for me and I can still sit and wait for my own little hero. He messed with my head but I wont let it effect me)
