This piece is beautifully written, and I can feel the pain in your words, but I don't understand what it's about-what happened...

This was a poem about my very first relationship. The guy I was with was very immature and made me fall for him very quickly. One night a bunch of us were hanging out one night. I stood back and examined the situation and later expressed what went on. I felt horrible that nigh and wanted to end my life.