You're not derranged. You're hopeful. You have friends who love you, and will support you. Be strong. Whatever you decide to do, it will be the right decision for you at that time. Who knows what the future holds, as long as your friends hold it with you. xx

I liked it. great work

You are not derranged hun, far from it. I don't honestly know how you have put up with it for so long. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for - just do what you must do.
K xx