Enough..
more than once..
to put it mildly. I dont want to get into these details here..

Here is all we have. I was tired of seeing her picture and the messed up messages that I can only guess were left for her. I deleted you from my IM and address book. But still, I can't let you go.

That's why none of this rings true to me. You say that you love me and that you are still stuck on me. But you're there with her.

I feel so alone here. People think that I am crazy for holding on to this. But they don't get it. This wasn't you. You were never like this. You were loving, messed up, and everything that I wanted. You kept me sane by being insane. This isn't you. I Will Get You Back.

Get me back.. how..

Btw.. you should get me back on yahoo.. ive been waiting for your response.. i know its difficult..
but.
idk
love.
Him..
Jack, is crying out for you to hold on to..
but he has her, cause your not there.

Btw.. you should get me back on yahoo.. ive been waiting for your response.. i know its difficult..
but.
idk
love.
Him..
Jack, is crying out for you to hold on to..
but he has her, cause your not there.

I'm at home, because we don't have school for a week, and the parents are crazy, so I probably can't get on IM. So, are you wanting me to get on IM or email......?

I know that this isn't you. I have no clue how to get you back. But I gave you everything I had. I'm so scared. What if I can't love again? I know I'm young, but who knows? What if I just can't find the strength to love again?

If you loved me, you would let go of her.

Just tell me what you said on Yahoo because there is no way that I can get on. Not until Monday. Sorry.

Do you tell her that you love her? I'm sure that she knows nothing of me. You are such a coward. You couldn't even wait. You say that you love me, but this isn't love. This is all Fake. Everything was fake. You sure got me, Jack. There is no difference. Jon and Jack are the same.

What do you want me to do.. hold on or let go? I hold on to her, i've built a life around her... five months, is a long time.. i tried holding on to a spirit... doesnt work..
i need to be touched.. to be held, to be loved..
w-e
jack- jon..
whoever..

Ive come to depend on her, cause your not here in person, but now ive fallen in love with her, her touch.. her in genral, i would offer to stand tall.. here with you but im tired of hurting you.. im tired of hurting me, straining.. just let me go.. give it all to him, love him.. hell tell him everything.. cause, im telling her.. so no longer a coward i will be..

Im not worthy..
never have been ive tried to show you, im a mistake, pure pain..
i told you.. not that its your fault, you dont deserve this.. you dont..

I get it...five months is a long time...just forget everything that I have ever said...it now means nothing. All the words on the beach, the smiles in the rain, and the comments I have left. Just forget.

Please...forget

They meant somthing then,
they still hold true in the heart that i have buried..
your right, let it go, forget all this..
go to him, let him hold you.. trust me you can let me go..
you need to..
you need to live your own life, dont let me control you, let him...

I dont know what else to add to this extensive conversation.. i gave my all, failed..
im human.

We are all human.

No worries.

I can't fight for you anymore.

Well ...
don't
he's not like me..
get to know him
love him.
.....

I do.

That's the best thing to do..
i would apologize, but we both know it's a waste of breath, and effort cause i've done to much..
so..
just carry on,
be happy..
if not for you,
for me..
please..
..me..

I am happy.
But not for you...
never again for you.
For me
and him
I will give you one thing, though
You have made me stronger....
thank you