These are just thoughts...nothing important...just the shit that I have to think about everyday...

Omg jill...
i didnt know
im tryin to change

Do you get it now? You are not the only one who feels pain. You can take that bottle, drain it, and maybe the pain goes away for a little bit. But I have nothing to distract me like that. And as for the "other girl", I don't know what to think; what to say. You are the one that I had dreamed of before I even met you. You are the one that I want. Am I the one that you want?

Do you like grape slushies?

Ive put the bottle down for you..
that slushie was the best ive ever had.. :p

Being with you and the dolphins of sort.. and the rain, the walk with norman
the mt dew..
the ocean
ill never forget any of it

I remember everything and I hate that all I have are memories. I love slushies...I haven't had a really good one since though....miss you. Merry Christmas.

Just a stupid girl....

You didnt ask for this..
im sorry for the way things worked out, if i could hold you.. thinigs would be different.. but your not here, and i cant help that i am a weak human

I know.
It will be okay.
We will be okay.
I will be okay.

Promise?

I do.
I would never lie to you.

It will be okay.

I dont think your telling the truth, thats just waht i want to hear and you know it..

You're right. But let's not forget that you lied to me every day when you told me that you loved me. Because it was what I wanted to hear.

I am telling you what I know that you want to hear.
But it is also what I want to hear.

No i told you that 'cause i meant it..
there was no lie there..

I can't believe anything anymore.

Then don't
throw it away..
it seems like i did..

You sure as hell did.

Nothing can correct the wrong i have done.
no one else is like me, they won't do things like me.. they can't now that you have survived me, you can take on the world with him by your side, and survive..

There are worse things on this earth than you.