This poem has a lot of emotion and thought into it. I'm so sorry if you are feeling like suicide is the only way out. I can tell you right now, it's not. I used to be that way, but my friend told me something that I was upset to hear, but it was true and it actually helped. She said that suicide is so selfish. If I truely loved my friends and family, I wouldn't hurt them like that and leave them behind to pick up the pieces of my broken life. I could never bring myself to do that to them. I love them too much. There are people who love you, please don't leave them to pick up the pieces.