I'm So Sorry for your loss. This happened to me to... the same way.. except that i was with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years.. and he to got shot right in front of me. So i know what your going through, and i know exactly how your feeling. When did this happen to you? For me it happened 4 months ago tomorrow, and i still miss him so very much! And I feel i'll never be the same again.