Hi janice, i know exactly how you feel. there is, make that was, a special person in my life . we shared our most intimate thoughts with each other. and now , because of pressures from others not approving of our relationship, i feel she is a complete stranger. i had to spend an hour and a half with her last night in the same room with a group of people. the hurt was almost unbearable. your not alone . i hate that someone else is feeling the way i do. hang in there