Aaah this is incredibly glum, so very heartbreaking. I could feel this word for word. The opening stanza is perfect, it really set the mood for the entire poem. The second stanza is full of anger (lost hope), but in a welcoming sort of way. Almost as if accepting defeat. It's absolutely heart-rending. And the third stanza really closed the poem just beautifully. Great last line!

Awesome work!