Ooooh! i am so sorry i know how hard that can be! i never thought i would get over nick..who was my first boyfriend and my first love. i couldnt even think to look at other guys. it hurt to much. but i told myself that it would all be ok, and i didnt even believe myself. well, one day i met this kid and something about him was so familiar, and i loved it. well, come to find out that he liked me, and i liked him too. so he asked me out. well, i later realized that the thing that was so familiar, was that his personality and everything was just like nicks. all of a sudden, nick didnt mean anything to me anymore. he was always a jerk after he broke up with me anyways...so, im sure there is someone out there that you'll find, (if you havent already) thats like him, that will just take your breathe away and make you realize you don't need the other boy. i hope everything gets better.

I know exactly how you feel n im sorry...