Wow... Again, I'm completely speechless.
This is totally mind-blowing piece, with so vivid and unique imagery, so many hidden meanings and excellent metaphors. Whole atmosphere of the poem is unforgettable, it just crawls in my mind, and forces me to read this piece over and over again.
You have fantastic writing style, so unique and effective.
My favorite stanza is:

-Spitting gasoline,
on my self-esteem,
it's a black Christmas in the classroom
but Santa's just a hallucination.
What's your name again?
I ask only 'cause I know you lie to yourself,
so why not to me?-

Keep writing!
5/5 from me

I don't like the ending of third stanza but I really love the effect that this piece left. It is completely unique and weird(in a good way). I didn't totally understand some metaphors but you expressed emotions really powerfully, you should be really proud on this one, outstanding poem.