2 thing that you need to get straight here, Number 1: you're not going to die any time soon unless some freak comes up to you and mysteriously slays you...and number 2: YOU ARE NOT ALONE. If I had known you needed help, I would have helped even though we never were really good friends. Ya wanna know why? Because I'm going through the same thing right now, and someone has helped me. So if you need anything, please don't hesitate to ask. By the way, these last couple of poems have been really sad, and really creepy. No More of that! Be a happy Marius, please, it will help us all.

Omg i freaking love this one!!! wow!! this one is very well written and kept me wanting to read more. i love it and have nothing to say to make it better.. *maybe add more because it was kinda short? and it had really good flow! i want to read more of it!! lol*
keep it up! :o]

For the last line in the first stanza I think you mean And and not Am. Either that or you're asking a question. Am I returning to heaven, or hell? Like that.

Other than that it was wonderful once again. Five out of five. I loved the rhyming words you used and I could picture it.

Fair poem... I like it... Really