I am always where you can find me

Your hands linger on my neck,
Feel your mouth on mine, hard and warm,
Inside I think "What the heck?"
These feelings bubbling up will soon swarm.
You gather me close and hold me tight,
I love the feeling of safety you give me,
I'll sleep soundly through the night,
Knowing by my side you'll be.
Your black silken hair feels so familiar,
Softly caressing my arm,
Your icy blue eyes are so peculiar,
I've given into your charm.
I feel your roam turning blood to fire,
I've never told you so many things,
But still you stay with me, flame the desire,
My voice only for you sings.
Hard sculpted muscles, inside I huddle,
Yet hands so gentle, so soft, a artists hand,
Inside I want release I want to cuddle,
I don't know where I stand.
"But how are you here?" I ask in my shaking voice,
"You are dead, you've been for a couple of months."
He just smiles that smile and his fingers trace the mark he left on me,
Then he turns into the beast inside that wants to be free.
I scream and I cry, trying to wake up,
This is not the you I want to remember, the one I want to see,
But this always happens, my blood drained into a cup.
I give it to you freely, my soul, my body, my heart,
Then I realize what I missed and hug you,
You turn into the boy I loved from the start,
All I say is now true.
I realize now I had to accept the good and the bad,
You kiss me and smile and hug me,
Then we are both nude and I am slightly sad,
Because this'll be all I ever feel or see.
"I love you Fae." I hear him whisper and we just stand there,
Hugging, soaking eachother is feeling,
It's been hours but it feels like minutes here,
Here in your arms, just laying here I am healing.
"I love you too, I miss you so much." I whisper just aching for his touch.
"I am always where you can find me." he whispered back,
Then I wake up and start another day, his love in a sack.