Beautiful. very sad. :( great flow tho!

I get what you're bringing across, but it doesn't seem to flow as well as the rest of your poems. might be the amount of information you're trying to get into each line-im not sure.

Every day i always look for ways,
I look for answers each day.
I Never really understood why,
But then as i slowly realized it was all just a lie...
^^ i think the first two lines don't go very well together. They don't seem to fit-i think its the repeat of "day" but maybe that was done on purpose, if so you might want to add a word to that second line, i think it needs about 3 more syllables.

really good though still.
Another very expressive and emotive poem!