Loneliness. It's a thing, you know, not a feeling. A big, ugly thing that moves in and takes over until you forget how to live without it, but you can't live with it either.

They don't understand that when you're that low, when you can't see beyond yourself and your fallen-apart world, it's the little things that send you over the edge, not the big things. And sometimes it is the littlest things that keep you going too.

I can't really change her, now, can i? but i can try to change myself

"":] the smiley face. the number of ]s determine how happy you are. example:
:] -not upset
:]] -happy
:]]] -overjoyed
:]]]] -basically jumping up and down and screaming 'wahoo'""

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IF I NEVER WAKE UP IT WILL BE OK....CUZ I DONT HAVE ONE THING TO WAKE UP TO....LIVE ALIFE OF PROBLEMS AND SORROW, THEN DIE. THATS ALL.

I'm sorry. I'm so terribly sorry. I can't even begin to express how sorry I am. Please forgive me?

These tears are stinging my eyes, but i won't let them fall...

If I've learned anything through all this, it's that life can take a funny little turn when you're not looking. And if you don't pay attention, you could get caught in a tangled mess that's hard to get out of.

I just love how i always find a way to ruin the things that make me happy