Im dead to the world, but im proud of it because to God im alive!

She puts on another mask to hide from the people she doesnt know, and she then begins to cry and the mask she wanted to stay on slowly comes off

How do you even know not what only to smile about but how to smile anymore?

im lost and in pain and if anyone is willing to give advice im willing to listen!
amanda

Last night my world turned upside down i just hope it was for the better.

I can't keep looking at him with a fake smile.....the tears are starting to show.

So there a guy that puts this smile on my face.....and this smile isnt fake

They split up and her walls surounded her heart....makeing her scared to fall back into love again

With the blood flowing down her wrists she realized for a moment, she couldnt be happy, without him

&& she sits there crying, scared, scared to be in a relationship again, crying cuz she doesnt want to get hurt again, she doesnt want to go through another broken heart

So this is what it feels like to fall in love with someone who you know will love you wtih everything they got!