What do you do when the one that can make you stop crying is the one that made you cry?

I wanted to smile because I knew that he was happy, but I wanted to cry because getting to see him again sounded more like a dream and less like a reality...

Let me sleep gracefully darling, let me dream, unlike my nightmare life...

Kiss me slowly sweetie for i will no longer be in this world...

Dont waist your time on me, Im not worth it...

Your to good for me, im just a peice of nothing...

Im nothing to you, but your everything to me...

Whats the point of living, when theres nothing to live for...

I never knew how much i loved him, untill he was gone...

Dont ask whats wrong when its written all over your face, you hate me and i can't do anything about it...