I can't sleep just yet, I need to tell you goodnight.

So scared that everyone is right.
I know i need my pills.
So scared ill be taken away again
Locked up for a month.
But the scariest is knowing i feel much worse than last time.

My defiinition for Bipolar Disorder;

B.roken
I.ndiscriable
P.ain
O.verdose
L.ies
A.nxiety
R.egret

D.eath
I.nsanity
S.miles
O.ngoing
R.unning wild
D.epression
E.ternity
R.age

So sick of being the way i am..
Nobody understands as much as they say..
So i say..
F**k Bipolar!!!!

Put away for protection.
Living a lie.
Leaving for the better?
No.
Worse off than before.
I knew it was a mistake.
I should never have entered the nut house.

I can see it your eyes,
I can see it when you laugh at me,
I can feel it when you hold me,
I can feel it when you kiss me,
But most of all I hear it when you say,
I love you.

Dont worry,
You'll be free of me.
When the sun comes up...

Could it be...
A life inside of me...
Well if there is, it is no more...
As it is drowning in drink...
And crying in pain...
But...
It's only life...
Isnt it?

Is this really a load of drunken dreams or the way that it really goes?

When he kisses me i feel alive.
When he hugs me i feel loved.
When he is with me i have butterflies.
When he was down on that one knee,
I felt the happiest i had been in three years.
Now when he is with me i know he will never let me go.