Are we alive? or just breathing?

I don't see the fuking point in living this so called life anymore!!

Is it ok that i slit my wrist?
No

Is it ok that i drink to forget?
No

Is it ok that i want to kill you?
No

Is it ok if i want to be dead?
Yes

I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everything is perfect and pretend it's not hurting me...

Theres too much pain for time to erase.

.....You will never understand what you put me through and never care.....

.....Leave me alone, Get out of my head, Your hurting me again.....

Behind my smile is everything i will never tell

The blade is forced into my veins again.

It's not just you that scares me, it's me, i'm scared of loosing control again...