Tears always last longer than smiles

I sat,
Contemplated,
and decided.
The Knife
To the wrist

Everythings been a lie
I'll make myself die
Goodbye

I can't deal with it,
I'm in too much pain.
Please help me...

Don't be afraid of death,
It's a blessing,
It's inevitable

I was doomed to be a failure the day i was born

My pillow isnt filled with cotton,
it's filled with tears.

The only real smile,
comes with the kiss of death

I feel so empty,
and the shell of me,
only feels pain

Each tear just brings the knife closer