I whisper your names to myself. Whisper happy birthday. I love you. I still think of you. Good night and till we meet again...

I hope your angel ears can hear my whispers here on earth because I'm afraid that if I speak too loud, my heart will hear and break again.

When I would ask "why did you make her have abnormalities? God would answer, "not abnormalities, uniqueness." When I would say "why are you doing this to us!" God would answer "Not doing, but allowing this."

When I screamed "I cant live if you take him"

He answered "I am what sustains you..."

When I begged on my knees "Heal her, make her well"

He said "All things work for the good of those who love me"

When I held her still body and sobbed "it is over"
He said "It has only begun"
When I asked how? How can I help anyone when I am in this pit?"
he said "slowly... you will heal and comfort others."

Your eyes become blurry-
Suddenly you can’t see.
You sit and question yourself,
Why couldn’t it have been me?

You will cry.
Find it hard to make it through some days.
You will miss them and need them,
But at the end your gonna be okay.

When I asked him what he thought about me, the first time that he saw me, I felt my heart melt when he replied "I thought you looked like Christmas morning."

Hell hath no fury like a woman...