This stubborn heart of mine just won’t let go of you…even though it never really had you in the first place

You never know what you have until it’s gone…you never miss it until someone else has it

I need to get it through my head that you can’t hold on to things that aren’t there…

I hate living this lie
I hate wanting to die
I hate when I cry
But most of I all
I hate not hating you

Forget the girl I seem to be
Forget the one you thought was me
Because it’s just a lie to mask the tears
That won’t leave these eyes...

The worst part about likeing yu is knowing that i can never have yu..

They say its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all but losing love hurts so much that id rather not love at all..

Yu promised me forever
that leave me, yu could never
but what happened to that
yu left me, yu didnt even glance back

And ive slowly gone back to my old ways of dragging the blade slowly across my wrist and saying that its all gonna work out in the end...

Im afraid of who im becoming
but i dont think i can go back to who i was