Can't cut deep enough tonight......

The little girl hug her teddy bear as hard as she can
and fall a sleep with tears in her eyes...

(from my poem The little girl in a white nightgown)

My life,My pain,
My secret,My scars,
My body,My tears.....
I don't want this anymore.....

I need to know,
if you love me too
If these same crazy feelings can come over you.
I need to know,
what I can do
to make you love me the way I love you.

...Every story needs an happy ending...
I'm still waiting for mine....

Just hold your wall up and put on a fake smile.....

I wonder how many sleeping pills I need to take to never wake up again???

I don't wanna hurt you with the truth of who I am....I don't wanna scare you off

....I won't ask for any help....I'm too proud to do that.....but if I don't get help soon I might die......

I cryed on the snow today....the blood was so red when it falled down on the ground....