Am I that insecure
that all he has to do is call me beautiful
and I'll throw all of my better judgement out the window.

I don't need numbness
I need healing.

Scars whisper secrets of past transgressions.
the floor and walls do remember well the blood that once stained their surfaces.
the halls tell tales of a horrible murder.
something is not right within this home.

I tried so hard to just get over you and i couldn't. now i realize that's now what i want at all. i don't want you to be some memory hidden in the back of my mind. all i want is to have you back.

And i use everything within me to keep myself from looking back.

&& you're number one on the list of my biggest mistakes.

Tell me what is worse:
being your own best friend
or your own worst enemy

Everyone keeps telling me to build a bridge and get over it but tell me, how can you build a bridge across the ocean?

I'm drowning in the tears
that i'm too ashamed to cry

Your silence, it's suffocating.
but your words may be worse.