I stand here looking out the window...
wishing and hoping that my prince in shining armer on his white horse is starring at the same star!!!

I walked home today
by choice
in the rain
wet and cold
but hell
i could cry!!

Hey im not perfect no
i just am perfectly broken!!

Times i dont eat i always say things like oh today is the last day ill do better tomarow but u and me both no its harder than that its like a cut only no one notices its like an addiction that i cant quit i wish some one would help me they all think it

I cant tell them
they will think that they failed as parents again

when truely its me who has failed them!!

Theres a fight going on in my head
death vs life
tears vs my smile
fear vs my self

but u no who will win??

death
fear
tears

Some things wrong with me in side and out!!

I always said i couldnt hate cuz if they would die i would feel bad...i made one exseption...for u!!

I thought that no one could see.. right through me! i was wrong they can how long could every one see the real me?have i changed or am i the same with just something to hide!?

They told me to "soul search" what does that mean and more importinly... do they want to no what i am hiding... do i want to no?