My smile is my captor, the silence my refuge...

No matter how many more tears I cry, even if a thousand tears would fall down my face, I know you can never come back,. I know because I've cried, and you are still not here.

It takes a few months, maybe even years, to establish a friendship but only a second to destroy that. Even best friends don't last...

I saw you today. We were perfect strangers. We didn't even smile.I guess you forgot about how we we met under the stars, became best friends and shared secrets. I can't believe you have forgotten that one thing I can never forget: our friendship.

I'm Okay, I'm fine. Really.
My lie to get me through today. And a smile to cover it up.

Now only do I understand that
FRIENDSHIPS NEVER EVER LAST
Friends are just there to watch at the sideline, sure, they'll cheer for you but they'll never be there to cheer you up when you are alone and crying...

When I am hapy and funny, all my friends are there. but when I need a helping hand, someone to understand, they go away like I got the plague.

You are fading little by little evereyday and I can't pretend that you are fine anymore. It's almost as if the veil had been drawn, my eyes have been cleared and now for once, I can't say "I'm Okay" without making it a lie.

People say that life is full of beautiful simple things but how can they ignore the little fragments of sadness that surrounds those simple things, how can they ignore the pain and the hurt that makes all the difference in the world?

my scar hasn't yet healed, the past seems to haunt me, friends have disappeared, i need a lending hand and a voice to say it's ok for big girls to cry. maybe then, i would be able to open up my heart and feel the pain, just for one last time.