Itz the 3rd or 5th time for me & you and i know i'm going to end up crying 4 you again , why cant i just tell you no?

Can you see the real me? can you tell that i'm screaming inside, that i'm crying inside?or do you just see the lie me smiling ?

I keep popin pills maybe this time it will kill me.. but it doesnt,
i keep cuttin my self maybe i'll bleed to death.. but i dont
i keep smoking maybe it will kill the pain ... but it doesnt
so i guess i'll keep trying

Sometimes i think if i fall and die in the middle of the hall way at school will anyone notice, or just keep walking

How is it you are the main person who makes me cry my self to sleep, makes me feel down & blue, makes me get butterflies in my stomach every time i see you, makes me go through pain after we kiss. how is it that i love u?

The other night you hugged me & kept me close & kissed me& whispered into my ear 'you know i love you right?' and i said sure/whutever... then why do you keep hurting me?& you have nothin to say

NO this wasnt suppost to happen i thought i was over you,.. but when you kissed me i fell back i love w/ you

After you (my best friend) said all those things about me & when we talked it over you lied to my face ... & you think that we are still bffz your wrong.. we're only friends

4give you again ???
for all the times you made me cry??
for all the things you said about me?
for all the crap you started?
for stabing me in the back??
no i wont 4give you , not this time

As I'm laying on your chest i can hear your heart bet
& what can i say i fell in love with the sound