Why is it that youre aloud to have 'girl' friends but i cant have 'guy' friends

& maybe i would be happier if someone actually cared

&& i dont want you to see me because then you would realize how bad i really need you...

I dont love you anymore...
if i say it enough maybe my heart will start to believe it...

& when i accidently signed onto your screen name, i saw all the emails you wrote to [[her]]

and it killed me...

I wish i [never] saw...i wish i -never- knew..

I KNOW you guys hate this but can you please read "Not a poem but you guys need to read it"
i really need help... :(

& you KNOW you have to break up with the one you love for your sake, but you just cant because you love them so much...

I should have listened to them when they told me you were bad news...

What do i do now since the one i love doesnt love me anymore?