Youre not even in my life anymore, yet you (( still )) break my heart

Is this how you intended it to happen?
did you want me to fall madly in love with you, then have you break my heart?
cause if thats what you wanted, you got it.

Underneath these dark clothes and black eyeliner is just a girl wanting to be loved...

&& i hide underneath my make-up so no one will see the real me.

I'm sorry i loved you more than i loved me

Its just that...i remember every word you ever said to me...
and you cant even remember my name.

&& i'm even starting to believe my own lie. (( i don't need you ))
but in the back of my mind, i know that i still do.

&& i'm sorry for all the times i made you mad && i'm sorry for being myself instead of who you wanted me to be. && i'm sorry that i drove you soo (( insane )) that you finally [ left me ]
&& i'm sorry for loving you the way i do.

We had the best day. we cuddled with eachother all day and you told me you loved me. you showed everyone you cared about me. then that night you called and simply said (( its over ))
it was mean for you to tease me like that and give me hope.

You were the person i told (( everything )) to.
now that youre gone i hold in all my feelings and it makes me feel 10x worse