I cant wait on you forever...but the sad thing is..i probably would. even though i know you're -never- -coming- -back-

I sit by the phone all day just waiting for you to call and say "sorry" but you've already -forgotten- about me. i was just another name in your book.

Its not that i want you...its that i -need- you.

&& i dont know whats wrong with me. whenever i think about you my face turns red and gets tingly. when you hld my hand my heart tickles. is this love? or something else? i've never felt this way about anyone before...

& i spend most of my time thinking how terrible it would be if you broke up with me...and how i wouldnt be able to go on...and how WONDERFUL you are...while youre out behind my back with anyother girl...

& its so hard to keep on pretending like this. ive been sad for way too long and i cant hide it any more...i just hope they can accept me...

& im LYING to myself when i say i dont love you anymore...the truth is i miss you terribly and i need you here with me

Its not that im stupid for coming back to you time after time again. its just that maybe youre different. maybe youve -changed-

& you wonder if anyone would care if you died tomorrow.

Do you ever want to wake up in the emergency room and hear the words
-she's not gonna make it-

heard it from somewhere..