& it's crazy because
i've never been the type to day dream
or smile for no apparent reason,
but ever since you, i've become this sort of
gushy, mushy, lovey, dovey,
open-hearted kind of girl.

& I love knowing you're thinking of me, too.

I decided today
that i'm going to delete you from my myspace;
delete your pictures from my computer;
delete your number from my phone.
i'm going to delete every good memory of us
and hope to god i won't ever remember how much i loved you.

& i'm starting to realize how useless it is
to write all of these quotes & poems
about how much you hurt me & how much i need you.
you're never going to read them, anyway.

It hurts seeing him walk through the halls;
hold hands with her in front of his friends;
kiss her at his locker;
but you've got to look on the bright side, girl.
He's going to break her heart, too.

&& I'm begging you to be the one thing in this world;;
that can take my breath away.

Every time I think of
your name,
your face,
your smell,
your taste ::
I stop breathing.

I just decided that I don't care what anyone thinks.
I don't care if you don't love me back.
Somewhere along the line, something GOOD has to come out of this,
and I'll be DAMNED if it isn't a relationship.

&& this song can rip me to shreds,
tear a whole in me the size of a watermelon,
break me down into a pile of dust
because I KNOW when you hear this song,
you don't even think of me.

&and I already know that, someday,
every icon every teenage girl has
will be written (a b o u t u s)