& i'm starting to realize how useless it is
to write all of these quotes & poems
about how much you hurt me & how much i need you.
you're never going to read them, anyway.

I decided today
that i'm going to delete you from my myspace;
delete your pictures from my computer;
delete your number from my phone.
i'm going to delete every good memory of us
and hope to god i won't ever remember how much i loved you.

& I love knowing you're thinking of me, too.

& it's crazy because
i've never been the type to day dream
or smile for no apparent reason,
but ever since you, i've become this sort of
gushy, mushy, lovey, dovey,
open-hearted kind of girl.

& she had never felt uglier than when he looked her in the eyes and said, "you just aren't my type."

& she'll lean over the toilet
and spill out her guts
cause she's got this idea in her head
that she'll |NEVER|BE|ENOUGH|

-Carissa-

I was kinda hoping you'd be my everything
while you were coming to the conclusion that I'll never be your anything.

-Carissa-

& it's all because you couldn't love her
that she's making goals that will only hurt her.

-Carissa-

So when you're looking over her coffin
with tears streaming down your face
remember that it's all your fault
she was dying in the first place.

&nd it seems so silly now
but, at one point,
just hearing your name
took my breath away.