&& I'm sorry that when you look at me
I don't meet with everything you want...

&& even though I remind myself that we'll
probably never be together, I still won't let
myself f a l l for anyone else...

You told me over and over again
I'm not worth your time...

One day I will tell you everything...
One day I will spill my heart out to you..
The only question is..
Will you be there to clean up the mess...?

I have been hurt time and time again
there has been so much damage done to my weak yet black heart
and now i dont think that love can
heal anymore...

Why?
Why must we fight?
Can we not just make
Love all night...

Eyes blood shot red
razor looking pretty laying close to my arm
beautiful red dripping
one more painless kiss and i could be gone...

The black nail poish...the cuts on my legs...the burns on my legs are just away for me to ease my dreadful pain...

In my books saying "I love you" is like saying "Go die in a hole..."

I'm sleeping in your arms under the midnight sky...you give me a kiss on my forehead and tell me you love me to death to us part...then I wake up and realize that I was only having a sweet dream...