Today i stood there. perfectly still. i closed my eyes, i let my hair blow in the wind and i let the music blast in my headphones. my mind went blank and all my pain went away. i was happy again.

You once told me that i deserved to be the happiest person in the world. why would you say that and then hurt me in the end?

I want that moment like in the movies when you walk into a crowded place and your eyes spot me and everything just slows down and in that moment you realize that you want to be with me.

You fell once, i stood by till you got up. i've recently fallen, you just kept on walking.

We both fell once. you picked yourself up but i'm still sitting here waiting for you to help me. but i have a feeling your still walking away and never coming back to help.

Why do we push ourselves into something so amazing, when we know we're always going to be hurt in the end?

You think that i dont care or never did care about you but if i didnt then why do i cry myself to sleep everynight to thought of never being with you again?

I can tell you dont like me anymore but i'm hoping someday you'll love me for the same reason you did before.

I've lost the thing that i loved most. and the sad part is that i know i'm never getting it back. i'll miss you...

Smile so the tears wont fall,

laugh like you dont hurt at all,

fake it so he'll never know,

that you still havent let him go.

(this is what i'm going through right now)