I sometimes feel inconceivably incompetent to
live up to my own expectations. i sometimes
'have an unbearable sense of uncertainty.
`* i'm blessed with opportunities people
only d r e a m of. i'm scared but prepared..

So i`ll go to bed and think about him some more;
while he sits at home thinking about that wh0re

Well you've got my hopes up again,
but don't sweat it. this won't be the
first time you've let me down

Just never mind everything.
never mind what we had ...
never mind the nights i cried
never mind that i can't survive
never mind the fact that i love you
just... never mind everything

if we werent meant to give things another
try ... our paths and our thoughts wouldn`t
keep crossing & we wouldn't keep tripping
over our feelings for each other ---

Its hard to wait around for something you know might not happen, but its even harder to give up when you know its everything you want

Once you care so much about someone
to say i love you
and mean it with all your heart.
you'll never forget that person
no matter how hard you try.

I didn't care that you left and abandoned me
what hurts most is i would still die for you.

He grabs my wrists
as my fingers turn in to angry fists
and i whipser
"why can't you love me? i'll change for you; i'll play the part"

So why did I kiss him so hard late last friday
night? And keep on letting him change all my
plans? I'm either so sick in the head ;; I need
to be bled dry to quit.. Or I just really used to
love him. I sure hope that`s it `*