I've lost alot of weight.. u asked me how, i said easily i didnt eat much adn i work out.. then u asked me " why.. why do that to urself.." and i say " cuz now maybe u will like me better"

Im gona give up again.. cuz thats all i really can do.. so here i will say it outloud for you to hear.. im finally giving up on you..

Wuts the point ne more? i dont think there is one.. there never was one.. i dont see y u care so much.. i dont get it.. y do u ? well u shouldnt.. cuz there isnt a point. cuz i gave up a long long time ago..

If u see me smile kno that its fake not real. i always have to make a fake smile laugh and yea im jus sick of it.. but u wouldnt understand if i told u so im not gona try...

If u could take the chance and watch me fall would u? or would u take the chance and catch me if u saw me fall?

--my soul is black and my tears are red.
my tears flow from my eyes and my arms and it shows my black soul--

I cant keep living my life like this.. i miss my happy life.. but now all i see my self is being sad and never happy again.. is that how it is gona be? never happy jus plain old sad..

My black soul is here to stay nuthin in my life is happy. i duno y i jus cant be happy i like it dark. i like the mystery. maybe someday u will c that i am the way i am and how i am is i like my black soul. its not like i can change it ne way

Wut does it mean to be depressed? does it mean that i hate life want to die and go away.. live another life.. or wut? wtu does it really mean. does ne one even kno?

Life sux but we get thru. no one wants to see that the life we wish we knew was rite there. but we chose the other way.. we took the life that could kill us. jus cuz we dont like ourselves.. so here we go takin the wrong path... o well it happens.