People always asked me why i did what i did, and i said "because its easier than feeling something"

&Does anyone even know whats worth fighting for anymore?!?&

my red tears flow silently to the ground

Xx a red crimson sea flows beneath mexX

If u see me smile kno that its fake not real. i always have to make a fake smile laugh and yea im jus sick of it.. but u wouldnt understand if i told u so im not gona try...

If u could take the chance and watch me fall would u? or would u take the chance and catch me if u saw me fall?

--my soul is black and my tears are red.
my tears flow from my eyes and my arms and it shows my black soul--

I cant keep living my life like this.. i miss my happy life.. but now all i see my self is being sad and never happy again.. is that how it is gona be? never happy jus plain old sad..

My black soul is here to stay nuthin in my life is happy. i duno y i jus cant be happy i like it dark. i like the mystery. maybe someday u will c that i am the way i am and how i am is i like my black soul. its not like i can change it ne way

Wut does it mean to be depressed? does it mean that i hate life want to die and go away.. live another life.. or wut? wtu does it really mean. does ne one even kno?