The more you care, the more your willing to loose. <33

He thought i didnt want him there..

is he kidding?

i told him that i would have given everything just to see him on my birthday.

It was my birhday..

i came home and there he was standing on my porch with a CD, balloons and a huge sign saying happy birthday.

<3

After the obsession runs out,

ill have the ability to love after.

im just so afraid that he doesnt.

<3

Love is not the obsession. its the feeling that comes after. <3

I say im ok with the intention of you realizing that im [not <3].

You wonder why im shy and i have nothing to say?

its only becuase i believe this is all too perfect to be..

real

<3

So i guess anyone could say everything is perfect <3

but i know

everything is wrong.

<3

"he only matters to me when were this close" <3

& he told me that it just proves that its all real and not just a big fantasy. <3