I finally accepted that you care only for yourself
And this knife is the only one that can help
I cried myself to sleep as usual as every night
But this would be permanent for i've given up the fight...

I won't think about you no matter what
I know you won't waste your time on me
what's the point of you getting in my head?
Nothing, Exactly.

I may f.uck up many times
Still, I only have one life to live
So for all of you who enjoy watching me fall
One day you'll end up with a wake up call
Your lives are worse than mine
Shi.t happens, get a life.

S-H-I-T happens.
Deal with it.

Numbness enters my heart as the first tear drops.
Loneliness takes over as more tears roll down.
Pain strikes my heart as i wipe the tears away.

Leave me alone to my sacred silence
In my final resting peace
You are the ultimate reason
Why i'll forever cry red tears...

quoted from my poem "Red Tears..."

Whether i stain my hands with your blood..or mine...does not matter
For i'd eventually end up in the same place.
Hellhole.

I WANT TO BE HER
I WANT TO BE WHERE YOUR PASSION IS
SHOW ME I CAN BE THIS
Music is your girl.

In a place of despair
Where only i can lead the way
Noone tried to help
They all know i deserve to pay

When you soundly sleep
You will never realize
Blood shed under
Their pleading, teary eyes

Forgive me.
For not forgetting.

Past is full of regrets
But there's nothing you can do
Just forgive and forget
See through someone else's point of view...