Why bother opening your heart when in the end you know that it is going to be shattered forever into a million pieces

Im hiding behind this smile
praying that you wont see the real me

Words leave marks
not only on skin
but upon peoples hearts

Sorry i cant hide this pain any longer
sorry i cant be a fake

I bleed a bit more every day
because of the words you were screaming at me

This cut on my wrist is just a ripple in the ocean of my pain

How am i suppose to trust others when i cant even trust myself

I thought i had a friend but really all i had was a bunch of lies yet to be told

Sorry mum im not ur pretty gurl dressed in pink
who is all smiles and laughter
sorry mum im ur ugly daughter dressed in black
only silence, no smiles only tears
~SORRY MUM IM UR UGLY NIGHTMARE~

They look and see me wrists
They order me to stop
But what they dont realize is
That suppressing my feelings
Is what put the blood on my wrists