How do you go on eachday living a lie?

believe me i know,
once you get the hang of it, it's alot easier than you think.

I just want to run up to you like a little kid again and give you the biggest hug i can.

You know what's really [sad]

i don't even know MYSELF anymore .

&& (sometimes) i don't even think that you know i'm ALIVE .

It doesn't matter how many times i say the [words] [ you want to hear ]

THEY DON'T MEAN ANYTHING IF I
DON'T MEAN THEM.

L O V E - there is no right or wrong answers to define it.

This may be my last chance for *real love*
if it is than why doesn't it feel as good as it did months ago?

&& maybe (oneday) you'll realize we are meant to be

I'm NOT so sure that my life is [ever] going to give me * unconditional,die-for-eachother,TRUE LOVE *

Maybe i wanted you before because you [weren't] mine , and now that i have you i'm not so sure that youre what i wanted all along...