Im now have everything i ever wanted.. y do i still want to die so bad??? i dont understand

Tell me what u want from me, tell me what to do, i just cant find my own self

THis week i see my life falling apart and the more i try the more i fail :( i really need to talk

Lets just say i really dont care anyone what you all think i have my friends and thats all I need

I am done with everything, this is my life, i know what i need

Im am fighting for what i need, any it seems no one wants to help me

Last night was great being with my friends having funn it was like nothing else matter, but now im back to this place :(

Theres so much wrong, theres so much i want to make better, im loosing my voice cuz theres nothing i can do to get what i need, y r people so difficult (she lied to me again)

There all telling me that my family should come first, but sence when did i ever come first to my family???? ya i dont think so

They ask me what i think, i just go along, after all i dont feel anything anymore