Im sad, how did life ender up killing me

~ I Just want it all to end because im fighting so hard and im dead on the inside whats left?~

~ And i heard you on the phone today with tears in your eyes then you started to cry, then i smiled because i wished he would die

~this ones about my moms boyfriend let me know if you like it!

&& so i had a bad dream last night of you dieing i stood right next to you an killed myself so i could finally be with you...

&& so i cut your name into my arm i wrote what i think about you people told me its really a powerfull message i dont care cuz i feel so lost

&& so im gonna rite your name but its kinda differnt im gonna do it with a razor blade im gonna do it on my arm now u will be here with me and your rite bye my side

~ dont want to live , dont want to breath, dont want to be here without you by my side~

~ as i look at this knife i see my verry best friend that will help me in the fight called life ~

~ I find myself getting lost in a world of pretend i dont even know whats real anymore~

~I wake up crying at night saying daddy come home then like in the past all i see is the dark i relize u wont be coming back~