& i wanted to call u to say merry christmas and to tell u i love you but i cant just another year without u

I am crying because on the inside i am dieing

&& today my mom asked me what i wanted for christmas what i want they cant give me i want my daddy

I really need help rite now, He hurt me again this morning, my heart is shaking, i cant move, i want to tell someone, but yet im so scared

I want to call you but i know i shouldnt i will only be hurt more

&& if i could only call you that one phone call could of saved my life!

&& so i looked at this razor blade i relize im here alone with my best friend that wont ever give up on me!!

&& this razor blade looks like the only thing in my life that will stay and not leave me

&& so i started cutting again because i cant stand the person i am

Its funny how when you start to enjoy your life and you start to see were you belong then it all gets taking away then again you relize your on your own