I was talking to someone last night they told me when im with them i pretend to be happy and i have so much energy but when they talk to me all they can see is someone whos not there whos really hurt and lost i love my friends they help me relize alot!!!

&& today i went to this important type thing everyone seemed so happy i didnt feel like i belong

&& today im trying to make better choses than what i ahve been doing this week but i feel so stuck

& if something happened to me and i die people would only care in the beginning then they would move on

&& maybe when your mom and dad see's you laying there dead, maybe then they will finally relize that you just needed them in your life to love you

As i looked around today i relized im much different than these people around me i felt like no one understood , i wanted to be alone

And so you told me i had to go tonight, i know i cant handle anymore, y am i always there for you and your never here for me

&& cant you see that your words are slowly killing me

This is are family not his im not going to accept this after what he did to me

&& maybe you can convince my mom of stuff and make her believe u, but my friends r here for me they understand what your like