Im feel really guilty, i take alot of blame, But what i did was for a reason witch i cant figure out

I told u how i felt like killing my self that i might even try, you looked at me and laught, like it was some kind of joke, U know how much i hurt, you know about my past, and i jsut cant take anymore

I cant change how i feel, I cant change the past, I just wish i could change how i felt about u

I dont want to live without u, please dont go

You told me i dont understand, I understand quite well im just not saying anything

I'v always been nothing but weakness in you eyes, i cant be here forever its my time to go

Just got back from the hospital, i have nothing to say i have nothing to do, im back to my same ways but this time i dont need you

I got nothing out of my experience from the hospital, i just relized how much i missed cutting and pretening i was ok

As much as i try to pretend im fine , i look at you and hid the truth and not be weak to u

Its called family not competition