Somethings are meant to be and somethings just arent. if it is then let it be, if its not then just let it fall apart.

That razor looks good right now
i need to bleed the pain out
i press it against my skin
and all i feel is relief,
i see the red running down my arm
its taking all the stress out of my life.

The pain runs deep
the wounds run deeper
my scars wont go away
and im reminded every day.

Im full of nothin but pain
ill mess up your life
dont let me in;
ill mess you up bad
once you learn my name
trying to love you
meanwhile going insane
this
is
what
happens
when
you
dont
know
how
to
play
this
game.

Sometimes it will be easy
other times it will be hard
loving me will be a battle
because my heart's been scarred.
but dont blame yourself;
you havent caused me any pain;
it's been a life long build up --
it was there long before you came.

Watching the tears form in your eyes then fall down your cheeks is the only thing that really gets to me. nothing hurts more, & nothing cuts deeper ; than the regret that fills my heart when i watch my father's eyes water, cause of his daughter.

I try to fade away in my dream world
& act like everythings okay
but reality has a way of smacking me in the facee.
telling me if i was okay i would think & feel this way.

Ive tried everything to take the pain away.
to put a smile on & fake it another day
but im never alright
nothings ever okay
no matter how hard i try to supress things
they somehow come out anyways.

And she pours all she has into that heart signed with your name; built in regret; & laced with pain.
will you break it? she asks as if in vain, because she knows when someone's not the same.

What am i suppose to do?
my heart beats for you.
i can cry my eyes out
all night
and fake a smile every day
because nobody will beable
to relate with my pain.