You dont know how fast you're gonna lose me if you keep acting as if i dont exist .

They push you until you fall
And when you're broken and pathetic
They'll care again.

Tear me down, crush my spirit. i dont care anymore.

I wonder if it hurts to live, and if you have to try..

And just when you think life cant get any worse, everything gets better and its ok to smile...until the dark cloud comes again.

I'd do it if i were brave, if i had courage, if i wasnt a wimp and if i thought it would mean something . .

Suicidal thoughts.

And this is me, pretending not to miss you..

I've become everything i hate..

I blast the music loud to stop all thoughts.

If i could, i'd look you in the eyes and say i'm sorry.